This time last year:

I was lost.
Miserable.
Lonely.
Alone.
Thousands of dollars in debt.
Feeling hopeless and with out purpose.
Living at home.  With my parents.
About to take on a company that I had no idea I even wanted.

This year:
Taking the leap of taking over the company, becoming my own boss, creating my own destiny, has resulted in life changing circumstances.  In the last year I've crawled out of more debt than I thought possible.  I've gotten out from underneath the thumb of a man who was truly abusive of his power over me and my emotions.  I've come into my own as a business owner.  While I'm not perfect, I'm learning, and actually succeeding.  I've opened myself up to a man I normally would have ignored, simply because he didn't fit the physical ideal I had in my head for "Happily Ever After", and in turn found someone warm, and kind and funny, and sexy as hell, who I can't take my mind off of, and whom in a matter of a few short months, I have fallen madly in love with.  Moved in with.  Decided I want to spend the rest of forever with.  I am more confident, carefree, and myself, than I have ever been.  I am truly happy.

What a difference a year makes.

Happiness is...

Two months ago I was at an all time low emotionally.  Having finally suffered the ultimate betrayal in my 5 year relationship I found myself defeated, alone, feeling sorry for myself and humiliated.  There was no where else to go but up.  That morning my father found me crying and alone and at the end of a rope.  He said to me that morning "This will all pass, it wasn't the right situation for you.  Trust me (he's been married 3 times) when you find it, it'll come unexpectedly and from out of nowhere, and it will suddenly all make sense why all the others never worked."  Truer words were never spoken, as I think I'm in the midst of it this very moment.

Pretty sure...

I think I found him.

What a difference a weekend makes

I barely know you, but I awoke in the middle of the night physically sad that you weren't there.

Unusual Political Rant

Kathleen Rice...  Your campaign to "clean up" Nassau county is deplorable and I hope you one day know the familial destruction you have inflicted on 104 men that don't deserve your feminist agenda.  Yes, prostitution is wrong, but it is not your job to destroy the lives of miserable men that you know nothing about. 

Decisions...

The apartment I backed out of because you said you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me is available again finally.  Will I make the same mistake again?

Realizing...

that I'm never going to not be in love with you somehow gives me comfort.